sooo…
…I think I’m going to go to the beach for a little while.
So I’m feeling pretty good about now…
…finally occupying meself with many productive things for once.
So I’ve narrowed the purpose of the universe down
Either 1) there is a God and He is the purpose or 2) there is no god/purpose and we must live in hedonism.
Long ass year
Holy crap I can’t wait to get out of this imprisonment called school. I think the first week I’m just going to travel… far away…
If man as the existentialist sees him is not definable, it is because to begin with he is nothing. He will not be anything until later, and then he will be what he makes of himself. Thus, there is no human nature, because there is no God to have a conception of it. Man simply is.
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| — | Jean Paul Sartre |
Man can will nothing unless he has first understood that he must count on no one but himself; that he is alone, abandoned on earth in the midst of his infinite responsibilities, without help, with no other aim than the one he sets himself, with no other destiny than the one he forges for himself on this earth.
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| — | Jean-Paul Sartre |
Time
I tell you I had better get into a damn good college after this year. I never realized truly how much time baseball took up of my life. I almost can’t find things to occupy myself with and now I’m starting to actually finish my homework, be addicted to facebook, play xbox live, eat, write a book, and write a bunch of music… and no I’m not even counting how many hours I’ve slept. What else to do with all this pent up energy?
Change
As time goes on, I, like everyone, find myself changing and reflecting upon what I once was. Not more than a year ago I was staunchy Catholic. When a person would attempt to dissuade me with the argument that bad things happen to people I would always say how in the end God has a plan. But I’ve come to realize recently that this isn’t the case. Ironically it was mainly my theology class that made me feel agnostic. When I learned about other religions I began to get the idea that everyone thinks they are right and the others are wrong. Thus I began to observe that bad things such as accidentally hitting my head on low objects in my house couldn’t possibly help God’s plan unless his plan consists of picking on me. It’s just that there are plenty of Bernie “Madeoffs” out there who don’t get caught and plenty of good people suffering out there. Thus I am begin to be drawn into the world of agnosticism. In a world where good things don’t always happen to good people I must resort to existentialism to cope. In this I’m not trying to argue over whether God exists or not. I’m just looking for a take on this idea and hope.
